Below are the numbers I'm dealing with as of August 1st. Let's see what I can do by mid September. Guts is 85cm, biggest it's been for a while.

July Update (and a rant)

The video stopped mid sentence, probably better for all, but I think I should finish what I wanted to say. I was talking about how stress and repressed emotional turmoil can have physical effects. Take a look at Dr. Sarno and Tension Myositis Syndrome if you’re interested.

Anyway I was thinking as I was running that the World is going to hell in a hand basket and feeling depressed about it. But somewhat selfishly, you might say, I was thinking too that I can't let it get to me, or my type of thought processes will cause me health problems in the future like they have in the past. 

I know as a white male I'm supposed to be a racist, homophobe, misogynist and an Islamophobe. I'm even told that I'm not able to understand let alone sympathize with the pain of my fellow human beings.

I could spend the rest of my life on the internet trying to prove I’m none of the above to people who I’ll never meet or to those that have their reasons to play divisapolitics (my word). Or I could make the best of living in a time and place that offers more to any one person than has ever been the case in the history of our species.

To save me from myself (useless guilt, worry and self-loathing) I’m trying to understanding that I’m only really responsible to those who rely on me.

And as the Serenity Prayer so eloquently puts it:

“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

Yours in the long run ;)